Purpose of Life

What is the purpose of life?
Eat? Breath? Drink? Having Fun?

After a year of working, something just popped up in my head.

That was a peaceful weekend, after going to IEKA for a TV stand with my cousin . I got what I wanted and put everything in the place where it supposed to be

Suddenly, everything changed, perhaps I can say, I changed

I hardly recognized myself by looking at my room.

"I have the ability to achieve something by myself and I am proud of that. So why I am still doing that shitty job which I totally feel sick of? "

Then, I stopped talking, not eating, isolating from this world.

schizophrenia? well, not quite. But I believe I do have total opposite side of "me"

I admit that I am a perfectionist. <---- Virgo, you know. but what I actually achieved in the past year?

NONE!

Some of my folks told me to think widely, positively and humbly. Others suggested that I should took those as challenges, endurance and some kind of training. Yes, I think their opinions are right and bull shit at same time.

Why? Don't ask me. Soon or later you will find out by yourself.

I already wasted my whole year. Another year? Next two years? Three year? I don't think I have that many years in my life, surely if I still smoke like hell.

So, What I am going to do? I might have few options
1. Keep wasting my time
2. Stay and Be a Fool
3. Transfer and still be a Fool
4. Back to Military and be a dog
5. Transfer to other company
6. Not to be a Fool

This is the first time, I have some much hate in me, more then ever. Before I hurt someone, I rather choose to leave, to a place no one found me. There is always a clever way to deal with all that shit, surely I know that. I just can't because I am a damn fool, which you would never forget.

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